It is so easy to lose sight of this. For me, I have to give myself a daily “perspective check” and sometimes it isn’t pretty.
—Here are a couple examples–
One— My health:
We all know by now, I’ve been through it this last year! However, these last 6 weeks haven’t exactly gone as I’d hoped either. In my mind, the third surgery would be complete, I’d be back to eating as I please and on to a “normal” bathroom habit. Right?
W r o n g!
Instead I have been placed on antibiotics for the 3rd time to treat Pouchitis, which is basically Ulcerative Colitis of the Pouch they created in place of my nonexistent colon.
When people ask how I’m feeling, I can still say with confidence, “getting better every day!” Why? Because I can get my son out of his crib by m y s e l f, I can walk up and down the stairs ON MY OWN, I can go to work, I can leave the house, and at most times I am PAIN FREE!
So yes, I still have a ways to go, but guess what? I’m a hell of a lot better than I was the day before, and that makes me grateful!
Two— My hair
Oh, my poor hair! Where there once was long, thick, golden locks of hair is now short, patchy, thin strands trying to form what once was.
This one I struggle with daily. More often than not I look in the mirror and feel a loss of my identity. I don’t feel as pretty as I once did, I feel a sense of shame when I feel the thin layer of hair blow in the wind, knowing damn right it’s looking a little funky!
Most days I feel self conscious when leaving the house and 9 times out of 10 you will find me hiding under a hat.
The thought of my life before hair loss where I would get upset if the curls looked bad that day, or my hair frizzed up with the humidity… those are days I D R E A M of, and “problems” I wish I had.
I am BEYOND lucky my hair has shown regrowth, lucky I have any hair at all, lucky that each month goes by and I see progress and most of all I am so thankful to have a husband that still finds me beautiful just the way I am!
Listen, We’ve all heard the saying, “We want what we can’t have,” it’s human nature! What we should be doing is giving true thanks for our blessings which inevitably will lead us down the path of happiness!
My hope is we can all look in the mirror, zero in on the picture we are meant to see, and B E L I E V E it!