Over the weekend something hit me like a ton of bricks! While we were out enjoying some bison football we met up with some old friends. Like most people I connect with that we haven’t seen in a while, my health is often a topic of conversation. I am very open and willing to tell my story so this was not an issue or anything new.
However, nobody has ever asked my husband too many questions in front of me, let alone this one. As I’m telling my journey of this last year, They turned and looked at my husband and said, “What were you thinking during all of this?”
His response, “That she was going to die!”
That’s all he said, serious as can be and I can’t tell you how painful that was to hear!
Not only did this send tears to my eyes for the simple fact of what he said, but also because a big feeling of guilt set over me. I had been so concerned how I was doing, how scared I was during that time, not often enough did I ask him how he was feeling!
He has been my absolute saving grace during all of this. Anyone who knows him for even a second knows how caring, funny, loving and supportive he is. At any given time over this last year if I would let myself break down, show my fears, my disbelief that I would get better HE was ALWAYS there to pick me up. He would tell me all would be fine, take care of my insurance issues, work with the doctors and nurses to make my next plan of treatment a reality. Never once did I see him break down, lose his emotions, or show uncertainty that I would be okay. All while he took care of our son on his own, during my multiple admissions that lasted longer than we had hoped.
There is no hidden message here, no motivation to be given, this is simply the only way I know how to say thank you! Thank you for being my best friend, the best father, most amazing husband and an incredible person. We are so lucky to have in our lives! You keep me striving to be a better person and use this second chance to make a difference in any way that I can!
You changed my life without even trying, and I don’t know if any words could ever express my gratitude! God looked down and knew there would be challenges in my life in which I needed a partner, So God Made My Husband.